I ♥ Me!

I lay awake thinking of what had happened to my life. Even though i can feel as the boat rocks back and forth, im constantly reminded of why im on this journey in the first place. As i fade in unconsciousness, i dream of a dream that is now what i life for.

A few years ago, my son, Timothy (Tiny Tim) had always dreamed of once going into combat with a ton of pirates. He was always dreaming of the open sea and what it would be like to become a sea captain. His head was always filled with ocean things. He knew everything there was to know about the ocean! More than even i know! Still! But, as the months grew on, Tiny Tim started to act a little different then what he normally does. He was constantly coughing and i didnt know what to do about it! We tried all the medicine that was available for him! None of it seemed to be working though. It wasnt until we started to find bruises on his back, arms, and legs, that we started to worry. We had him at several different hospitals but none of them could tell us what was wrong! Finally we found our answer… My little Tiny Tim had leukemia! So many different things would go through my mind as Abbigale and I took him to the doctor. We were so scared for him. He had to go through kemo-therapy and every time a piece of his hair fell out, a piece of my heart would tear off. The constant puke, the constant worry! Nothing could fix what was felt inside.

As i slowly drift back to the present im totally aware of my surroundings and all the commotion going on. I slowly get up out of bed and drag myself up the stairs. The whole ‘no sleep’ thing was really taking its tole on me today. But how could you sleep knowing your doing something for someone that you love with all of your heart? Once i reach the top deck i notice that everyone is manning their battle stations! Whats going on?! I pick up my pace a little and hurry towards the captain. Whats going on Cap’n? ” Aye, bout time you get outta bed! Look about! Havent you noticed where we are?!” As he spoke i looked around and noticed for the first time that we were in the middle of Pirate Valley. The most common place known where ships go down. They named it Pirate Valley because they say that its the mighty pirates that live near-by. But no one is 100% sure. “Aye Cap’n…Pirate Valley. What is it i should do?” Hoping it was nothing that required too much physical strength i held my breath as he thought. “Nuttin you can do. They got it all under control.” I sighed with relief and hunched over a bit. “Still tired? You’ve been asleep all day! How much more sleep do you need!” Of course he would say that… “If you have already forgotten why exactly we’re on this voyage… Maybe you’d understand the pain im going through and the depression im in!” Truly i didnt mean to snap at him. But i was kind of grouchy about this entire situation.”Forgive me Joe…I was careless with my assumptions. I did forget about your pain. Go lay down in your cabin and we’ll wake you if anything exciting happens! ” I felt relief at his words but thats not what i wanted to hear! “When do you think we’ll make it?” I turned towards the captain when he didnt reply. The captain was staring at the sky deep in thought. Im guessing a few more days if the men hold out. If not maybe longer.” I let out a sad sigh and a “Thank you.” And walked back to my cabin to rest my head. Hopefully without having any flash-back nightmares.

♥Coming next:♥

♥Chapter 2: Unexpected♥